Don’t let the things you want make you forget the things you have.

As I get older, this is becoming more and more important. I am the worst for not appreciating the great things I have at this present moment.

to be in the present is super important – I know this. But I dream of new things. I have lived in this current situation since I was 22. I moved away form the North as I thought it held noting for me. In reality I moved away for 2 reasons. 1 – I wanted to leave all my mistakes behind and 2 – I was falling in love with someone from the South.

Indeed, I moved down to Cornwall on May 31st 1994, we had our first kiss on June 8th 1994 and we have been together ever since. We are now married with 2 nearly grown up children so I know I made the right decision at the time.

I left my city life for a life next to the sea working at a holiday park. Sounds great eh? And it was. I know it is a dream life for soooooo many people. And I am grateful for all it has given me so far. I have a lovely house, an idyllic family, clean air, seasonal work, freedom with flexible hours, and I really am appreciative of this.

But I am a city girl at heart. Well, certainly a suburb girl. I miss is terribly. I miss the immediacy of it, the anonymity of it, the bustle, theatres, cafes, the life. The ability to travel just a short distance and have everything at your finger tips as opposed to solace, space, lack of 21st century life thinking, possibilities….

It’s not that I don’t appreciate that time I have had here. But I feel that my time here is coming to an end. I have paid the price for me and my husband to be together. He is a country boy through and through. I know this because his mother has told him so! And now one child lives in London and youngest will be moving there sooner or later, so why should I need to stay here? I want to be near my children. I want our open door to be there for them if they need us for Sunday lunch, or just a cup of coffee. I want to be able to nip on the train for a 40 min journey to go and see them perform in a London theatre.

Have I not earned enough brownie points to finally get the life I want, or did I throw away that chance 26 years ago?